Over and Out

Well, that pretty much does it. I cannot make any traction at all in my cash games, and I'm the bubble boy in every tournament I play. I haven't had this bad of luck on the tables in a very long time.. And yes, I did use the word luck. I have lost count of the times I've made moves with anything from good to crushing win odds and came away empty.

Nothing is worth this sort of frustration. Nothing.

Anyway, I'm down to my final $7 in Pokerstars and that'll be that for there. Something isn't quite right with that site. Too many statistical longshots coming through, for and against me. You know there's a problem when I can predict not only that I'll get beat or beat someone, but on what street with scary accuracy. Stars is the king of throwing you a bone and snatching it away, too. 99 vs KK, flop gives you the miracle 9, then the turn gives HIM the miracle K. Must be some sort of sick joke, I've seen it so much.

So, unless there's a miracle in store, I think tomorrow this attempt at making $50 walk is going to be an utter failure. I'm so tired of playing at these non-productive levels anyway. Nothing quite as frustrating as finally hitting a great hand and getting action on it, only to walk away with $1.23. Weeee! Since poker isn't really fun anymore, I'm no longer amused with working my ass off for hours on end for a $0.50/hr win rate. To mitigate that, I've been playing $3.25 6-max turbo sit and goes, but with the latest string of crushing beats, that's nothing but pain and agony... So, basically, I'm out of ideas. Maybe it's just that I fucking suck at this game, but I don't know, heads up, holding top pair, statistically speaking, you should be winning more then 30% of the time, which I'm not.

I don't know how people who make a living playing this game do it. They must be masochists. I know that I, a relatively stable and happy person, am driven to throw heavy objects through my monitor when time after time I get screwed at the tables without even the common decency of being offered a reach-around.

So, to summarize, I hate this game. It's taken me a while to realize that, but truly, I hate poker. I think the only thing I might, emphasize might still like is live action tournament poker, but even that is potentially not worth it.

I'm toying with trying one more time on Bodog. I have to believe I'm again going to be farting in a windstorm, but I have a reason to try one more time there, so who knows.

I keep thinking I'm an idiot for ever pulling out the cash on my original attempt. I was actually making decent coin then. Of course, those were different times too. The Party at PartyPoker is over for us Yanks, and those were the heady days of poker when the flood of World Poker Tour wannabes were flooding like sheep into the world of online poker. I did make a fair coin off of them, to be sure, but I keep thinking what could have been if I could have just kept my interest. I mean, honestly, my skills at poker are pretty good, and I think if I'd have been able to poke my head into the $5/$10 level where not everyone is a complete tool, I could have actually done alright for myself, but alas, I made the decision to take some time off, and when I came back, the picture had changed. Party was gone, the fish either grew a brain or busted out, and now even at the loose change levels there are passable players, or at least players that don't give action on everything they see.

Anyway, word has it that Bodog is soft as a baby's butt, so I'll try once more to make this work. I'm not holding out much hope, but what the hell. It's only a game, right?